RAGEEEEE.

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as of now i'm focusing every ounce of energy i have into this comic thing.

so my roleplaying is slipping.i'm not posting here as much.
i'm not studying for the multiple tests that i have on monday.

and i came to the dramatic realization that my drawing is just not good enough to post on the internet.

meaning that as of now i have zero goals.zero things to look forward too.and a bunch of probable teasing and the usual crap.

plus I'm missing a crapload of assignments and my mark and math is just gonna keep getting lower.

then 'ill disappoint my parents,snap at one of my friends.
it'll spread around the school.

then my mom wil ltell me "wait a few years..your drawing will get better.."


A FEW YEARS?!

by then i would've forgotten all of my ideas i had NOW.

and.will.have.to.start.all.over.AGAIN.

but for now i'll have ignorant assholes pointing out obvious things and never going away.

i know this 'cause right now with the tools i have i can draw about as good as the creater of Elijah and azuu did when the whole thing got started.
which is pretty good.
but if its not photo-realistic then its just noy good enough.

*SIGH*

wow i talk to much...

[ogrefairy]

Oh sweet heart!

I had no idea this was stressing you so much! Your art really doesn't have to be good for beginning your comic. The best thing about that is that as you make more you will improve. It doesn't have to take years if you are practicing.

School is a different issue that I understand. That's really stressful.

Your RPing is fine but if you would like to take a break, that is fine.

You don't talk too much sweety! ^^

*hugs*

I hope what I said, helps....

[Keerott]

When art does not go beyond surface appeal or fancy detail then what remains is at best decorative. No contact is made with the true imaginative forces underneath.

Taken directly from Frank Frazetta's website, note the fancy detail remark.

Also, not all comics have to be photorealistic, infact, if you are willing to I would like to see some of this "Bad art" as the creator is often the worst critic.

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i seeeee..

okay.

soon.

once the scanner is up.

[ogrefairy]

Yay! ^^

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one more little rant for yas.....



coolies are stupid.

i told a bunch of them to "f-off"

and they follow me everywhere for the rest of the day acting like three-year-olds going "are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?are you my friend?"

and if i tell on them just to get them to leave me alone,they whine and pout about the teachers,call me a tattle-tail,and stick gum and insults on my locker.

-_-

and if i say anything avbout it,they'll interpret that as "OMG!!you want to fight?!"

so then they'll get a bunch of there friends and just stand there yelling at you,
and you don't dare fight back because you don't want to be swarmed.

and the whole reason this happened is because they got pissed off because
for some screwed-up reason like "OMG!she's taller then me"

well its like,wake up, i'm the tallest grade-8 girl in the school.of course i'm gonna be taller then you.

so while i'm feeling stupid,slow,clumsy,ugly, and large...

one of them decides to dare the other to ask one of my friends out.

and this friend is this really naive boy that is a year younger then me.

he has no friends in his grade because they all tease him because of his crossed eyes.

and he says "yes" to this girl.

and theres nothing me or any of my friends can do about it because he won't listen to reason.

and while THIS is all going on i'm getting ignored by the teachers in all my classes because like
many normal kids,i don't know the exact details of civic humanism or the hydrolic systems.


so then after all that i then realise that i'm pretty much a sports cripple,

so no-one picks me so i end up on teams with this kid who is the smallest in the school..

but he goes around picking fights and saying perverted things to girls,thinks that random strangers are his friends,and just generally is annoying.

so then after everything there happens,i go home,go to bed,and sleep in.meaning that i'm not able to bring home any of the stuff needed to study for the test on monday.

and *sigghhhhh*

at least its Friday i can have blissful lonerness where no-one can bug me because none of my friends have my phone number or email....

and then stupid comes along to deliver the flyers.he puts them neatly in the mailbox of every
house.except for mine where he leaves them all over the front porch.


and then my other friend moves away for the same troubles that i'm having now.

and i can't sleep at night worrying about him because he really thinks that moving away will
take all of his problems away,when they'll just follow him cause every school in the area
is like this.

so now i realize that the more people are around me,the lonelier i feel.
because i can only really talk to one or two people at once because in bigger groups i get ignored.


and all this started with alYSSA and all her bull crap rumours and falseness based on truthiness.
from last year which she can't get over,because she has this weird thing where everytime i draw
something she glares at it angrily because unlike her i draw actual things that require skill instead of cute litttle animals...which i don't mind but if your gonna draw it then don't
get mad at people and your low marks and art class due to lack of creativity because of the other 52 kids in the school who draw the exact same stuff al lthe time.

but the very MOMENT that someone dares to do something thats not lovely and cutsy and pink and purple...they stare at it weird ang go"she doesn't have any feelings...lets copy her ideas
and diss the original!"

and then smash it and rip it to shreads at the moment no one is looking like at the spring concert
where everything got destroyed.

and then i'l watch my marks dip lower until grade ten when me and my parents have to beg them NOT to put me in PLP like in this school and my elementary school.

and then my math teacher wil diss us all again and watch as we wonder what would happen if
we dragged scissors with wet paint on them into the side sof his car.

'oo...that would be FUN!


*evil laughter signaling the end of the huge rant*

[Stinger9]

Face it, people are (Pardon my french...) A***holes. They make stuff up, try to annoy you, and think that makes them clever. It is always the same. It is bullying plain and simple what some of these people are doing, but the only things you can do don't really help. You can either not let it get to you and try to ignore them, which fails pretty much 90% of the time, or you can talk to people about it. Sorry about this not being much help, but remember, people are willing to try to help you, you do still have friends on here, even if they aren't out there helping to stop these morons in your school!

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yes i know.it was just me vwenting here cuz this is th only place where these people won't see it.^^

[Stinger9]

True... I hope! Would hate for someone like that to sign up !

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yup.XDD

[ogrefairy]

Oh wow! I would say all of that is insane but I know it's not. -_-

Goodness I wish I could help you... get you out of there or help you deal with those awful people. I can't stand it when people do things like that and you are under a ton of pressure without their help. Sadly I am much too far away to do more then comfort. Even that isn't very good. -_-

*hugs tight*

I really do wish I could do more. Venting is good. ^^

[ZeroVX]

Ugh.....I know how you feel. I hated middle school. It's like....no one realized that you're supposed to have a degree of maturity.

*hug*

Just tell them how pathetic they are and how they have no lives. It's harsh, but I think that's what I should have done when I was in your grade.

[Keerott]

I believe that the only logical process here would be to blow up the school.

Not really but that would be awesome wouldn't it?

Sadly, I can't really give you any advice other than vent.

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YAYAYY


but still.



a few friends of mine ARE gonna wreck the teachers car.

[ogrefairy]

Are you serious? O.o Wow

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its not gonna be anything *TOO* damaging.

[ogrefairy]

I see

[ZeroVX]

I don't think that's a good plan.

Even if it's something minor, if they trace it back to you guys, you'll get in a lot of trouble.

[Stinger9]

True, even a scratch can cost quite a bit of money, and time, to fix on some cars, so they will probably expect you all to contribute to the fees if you get caught.

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my friends did it anyways,and i didn't go.