Post by Zolah on Dec 30, 2006 19:11:49 GMT -5
My mother has gone to the hospital, i cant really describe of what.. something called ' gall blås anfall ' goul bladder attack ..
she and my father has been gone for an hour now, I am worried sick.. mom said she would go and take an injection, but it shouldnt take an hour wouldnt it? >< I hope nothing has happened.... I would die if something happened to my Mom, she is my best friend and i lve her alot... I have hard to hold back tears atm, Im just worried.. so darn worried... im home with a friend rigth now but i dont want to worry her since she came here cause she had some problems aswell..
Better keep the face while she is here, she is watching a movie and i sadi i would check some roleplays.. since ive seen the movie already - White lie if I could call it that.
Atm I just would like to crawl up in my bed with my cat Sisko, and turn Alice Cooper up really high.. though avoid some songs like ' only women bleed ' then i would crack open... Isnt it weird how we coop with our feelings? This sucks.. rigth before my 3 years anniversary with my boyfriend... This sucks, seems like my family has a curse... my grand ma died before i could meet her, my other grand ma got alzeimers and didnt remember me when i was 10.. my Gramps died before his 90th birthday and he didnt even show any signs of passing away.. apparenlty he had died in his sleep, with his hand peacefully on his chest like if he was resting. My other grand father gets mad and claims my mother is lying when she says im his grand dougther - and i avoid him a little these days cause of that... wich makes me feel bad.
My sister got a son with a bastard who hit her infront of me when i was 7 or 8.. and then left for many years.. only gave my nephew some expensive gifts time to time... later my sister met a new boyfriend wich left her with huge debths and now she has a little to ive on and cant pay the debths.. wich gives my mother and father and ofc me alot of pressure.. my father has a long term medical history of changing heart... both hips.. fixing his nose due to injury ( twice actually, when i was baby i karate it off
) ... and now my mom.. diabetes, over worked, and now at the hospital... Life is a bitch... and i would god damn love to smack the hell out of it.
all these idiotic happenings has made me cold, pessimistic and i have too hard to see anything positive anymore.
' Oh gosh ! she got a baby boy! ' -sure he will problebly gain a sickness or become an ass when fuly grown...
' Congrats you won a lottery! ' - now what? I will spend all money and regret afterwards
Im sorry.. Im a bit depressed and i tend to have somewhere to 'puke it all out'
Lets all laugh of my pathetically life, and how its seems always to bend and twist around it self...
Edit: she came home, thank god. she got some injections for the bladder.. thing and for another thing i cant translate.. anyways she is home and my conscience is much lighter
she and my father has been gone for an hour now, I am worried sick.. mom said she would go and take an injection, but it shouldnt take an hour wouldnt it? >< I hope nothing has happened.... I would die if something happened to my Mom, she is my best friend and i lve her alot... I have hard to hold back tears atm, Im just worried.. so darn worried... im home with a friend rigth now but i dont want to worry her since she came here cause she had some problems aswell..
Better keep the face while she is here, she is watching a movie and i sadi i would check some roleplays.. since ive seen the movie already - White lie if I could call it that.
Atm I just would like to crawl up in my bed with my cat Sisko, and turn Alice Cooper up really high.. though avoid some songs like ' only women bleed ' then i would crack open... Isnt it weird how we coop with our feelings? This sucks.. rigth before my 3 years anniversary with my boyfriend... This sucks, seems like my family has a curse... my grand ma died before i could meet her, my other grand ma got alzeimers and didnt remember me when i was 10.. my Gramps died before his 90th birthday and he didnt even show any signs of passing away.. apparenlty he had died in his sleep, with his hand peacefully on his chest like if he was resting. My other grand father gets mad and claims my mother is lying when she says im his grand dougther - and i avoid him a little these days cause of that... wich makes me feel bad.
My sister got a son with a bastard who hit her infront of me when i was 7 or 8.. and then left for many years.. only gave my nephew some expensive gifts time to time... later my sister met a new boyfriend wich left her with huge debths and now she has a little to ive on and cant pay the debths.. wich gives my mother and father and ofc me alot of pressure.. my father has a long term medical history of changing heart... both hips.. fixing his nose due to injury ( twice actually, when i was baby i karate it off
) ... and now my mom.. diabetes, over worked, and now at the hospital... Life is a bitch... and i would god damn love to smack the hell out of it.all these idiotic happenings has made me cold, pessimistic and i have too hard to see anything positive anymore.
' Oh gosh ! she got a baby boy! ' -sure he will problebly gain a sickness or become an ass when fuly grown...
' Congrats you won a lottery! ' - now what? I will spend all money and regret afterwards
Im sorry.. Im a bit depressed and i tend to have somewhere to 'puke it all out'
Lets all laugh of my pathetically life, and how its seems always to bend and twist around it self...
Edit: she came home, thank god. she got some injections for the bladder.. thing and for another thing i cant translate.. anyways she is home and my conscience is much lighter
