Effing insomnia!

[Seth Asathi]

I've never had an easy time sleeping, I used to wake up to the front doorknob turning. That's how high strung I was as a little kid. There's reasons, but they've no relevance to this rant.

That was years ago. I was fine for the past few years, but ... for the past .... eight days I think. I've honestly lost count. I haven't had more than two hours of sleep.

So why the insomnia?

Something has me stressed.

Something has me wound so tight that I can't get my mind to stop. I'm sitting here with a nosebleed that I've had for the past hour (It refuses to stop.) My pulse spiked high enough to make me black out while I was typing this... For five minutes. Fortunately for me I put a towel over the keyboard and my shirt, the towel caught most of the blood. Some of it soaked through.

So what is it that has me wound up so tight?

And why the heck won't this nose bleed effing STOP?!

This rant is more a way of me to calmly (That is to say without causing my blood pressure to shoot any higher.) vent a llittle aimless frustration. Don't expect anything logical out of me, because I'm well beyond logic and meaning.

This pounding in my head.... ugh it feels like I'm going to explode...


stress ... what has me stressed....

That's just it, I can't think of any reason why I'm so stressed out!

Meanwhile the screen is doing the friggin wave... the text looks like it's ten feet off the screen. I feel like I could count the pixels...

May as well start describing what I feel. Good a place as any to put some focus on this for retrospect (assuming I live long enough. My pulse the way it is, you'd think I had espresso for blood.)

Right. At the moment every muscle in my back and shoulders is in knots. I can't extend my arms or move my back without blinding pain. My head ... it's just throbbing. My vision goes between blurring, shaking, and fading. Tunnel vision started a long time ago.

My hands are shaking like that time I spent fourty bucks on coffee and drank it all at once. Fun times, filled with many visits to the bathroom in the mall.

My stomach ... I can't eat anything, the acid is unbearable so I have to keep drinking a mixture of baking soda and water (I'm not sure what the medical effects are, so read this carefully:
DO NOT TRY THIS AT HOME. For all I know I could be killing my liver.)

On the plus side, I've lost fifteen pounds.

This is going nowhere... I'll say something more when I have something interesting to say. Thanks for letting me vent some steam... ugh...
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"I'm a lobotomy short of a peaceful day."
~Seth Asathi To'Alis

[Seth Asathi]

Huh, wasn't eight days, was four. Felt like eight. Finally slept... don't actually remember much, but... yeah. Feeling better. Nosebleed stopped. I had a towel soaked in blood, and now I have a rigid cloth frisbee that smells like old blood.

[Wolfy]

well, it's good that you finally slept. *snerk*cloth frisbee...*giggles*

[Seth Asathi]

Seriously. It's rigid like cardboard.

[Shippo_no_Neko]

I have a similar problem. Every night, I lay in bed, my mind cranking and cranking. My best ideas come then But... Yeah. It's miserable in the morning. I sympathise with you >_< It doesn't get easier, either. . . Waii... But I don't get nosebleeds often... Yeah. Good luck, though!

[magicklorelai]

If you're experiencing unwarranted stress, you need to seriously examine what's going on. It's bad when you go for days without sleep, because you are shutting down your body very slowly, hence the persistant nosebleed(among other noticable effects). If you can, get professional therapy for it. I don't mean a psychiatrist(though that doesn't hurt, if the problem is in the mind), I mean like...a spa treatment. But professional- people who know how to relieve stress and do so with medical know-how.

Even if it's over for now, look into the idea, because if it happened once, it could easily happen again.

And wash the damn frisbee--- I mean towel!!

[blink11]

Oh no! That must be awful!

I used to have trouble with sleeping, but not that badly!

I dunno if this'll work, but it helped me:

You need to do something active during the day (run the mile, go to soccer practice, etc) to exhaust your body..

Then, your so tired you fall asleep fast! ^^

(I dunno, I'v only had minor sleep problems, nothing like what you have, but this worked for me..)

[Seth Asathi]

Here we go again with the insomnia. *sigh* Must be the weather.

How long have I been awake this time? Let's see... .... it was two days at the reinstallation of my OS....

uh... something like five days but I really don't know for sure. That portion of my mind is LOONG gone.

At least I don't have a frisbee towel yet.

Shouldn't have said anything. It just started maybe I can get it to stop.