A hello and maybe a sad goodbye...

[Ashley]

So hiya guys! I'm not really sure where to put this post, so I thought I'd try here. Yes, I'm just another Charby and Unlife fan that loves reading your comic Amelius, though I'm saddened I haven't had much chance to talk to any to any of you.

I don't really know how to say this... it must be odd coming from someone like me who've you've never met before in your life. The truth is... I'm scared for my life. I've been going over a month now with all these terrible happenings to my health. First my eyes start having these strange issues, and then my head starts having this terrible throbbing migraine in my head that's only getting worser day by day, and my body isn't acting like it's usual self anymore. I've been to so many doctors now whom all couldn't find anything wrong with me. Finally I'm getting sent to get an MR scan of my head, but am I starting to worry it may be too late for me...

So... I've decided to take this opportunity to do something nice for youse guys.

First I'd like to thank you Amelius being such a an awesome person. It was thanks to you that I started putting more effort in my drawings. Thank you so much! You've been a wonderful influence, and I hope your work continues to inspire allot of of other artists out there.

Sushiboy, I loved your webcomic Limbo, though I was saddened that you ended it. I wanted to help to you with you comic, though I wasn't sure if my skills were good enough for the job.

Nightreflection, Demon, lilac, Jetyjlfr, volkodlakmojster, Odin, jetylefr, and everybody is/was a poster youse guys are all great.

I also though I'd post some fanart of Charby and a little Limbo fanart too, though I warn that some of them are a little rough around the edges and/or unfinished:



lol, Charbic the Vamphog and Doctor Hexman. Don't ask.



My earliest attempt at drawing Charby:


I wanted to animate this one, but didn't get it to work properly. That's Sammy by the way to the left. A crazy nurse character I created was sorta influence by Charby. I was actually working a webcomic with her.




I used a little refrence for this one.



Limbo fanart of that mysterious character in the Limbo comic.




Not sure if I got the german correctly, those are my characters that Tony is saying hello to.
That's Kumomi the Malevolant Spida Girl to the left
In the middle is Flynnizia the princess of Malice
And in the right is Chopsuzy - wicked chef of Foul Dishes


I tried coloring it but it looked like blah:


Welp, that's it for me. If you don't hear from me again, then it was nice knowing youse guys however brief it was.

[Amelius]

*gives a big hug* I really hope this is not the last time Insaney! In one post you show how awesome and sweet you are, it would be a tragedy to lose you right as we are getting to know you! I really, REALLY hope that it's not something serious! I have tears in my eyes just reading this! If there's anything we can do to help please please let us know!

I really love all the pictures you posted here, they are so cute and expressive and I love your style to bits!

[lilac]

Oh my gosh! I'm so sorry! I'll be praying for you and I really hope that this isn't the last time we hear from you!! *giant hug* Your pictures and style are downright adorable and I really wanna see more from you. Like Amelius said, if there's anything we can do, just let us know! We're all a family here and we look out for one another. Just stay strong and hang in there, hun!! *hugs*

[Ashley]

Wow, thank you so much Amelius. Thank you really. I wish we could've met sooner, but am glad for this brief moment. I'm really glad you like my drawings, even though they were a little unfinished some of them.

lilac: I'm still hanging in there, and I don't want to let this terrible thing to beat me! I'm going to try and stay alive, so that I can continue making people happy with my doodles.

Again thank you both. You've already done so much already, and you've given me the strenght to carry on.

btw, say hello to Nick for me, Amelius. Tell him I love Cwen's Quest as well, and I hope can get to make some fanart of it once I get better.

[the1truesushiboy]

HGSLAGASKJAHFDHNG!!!!!!!! YOU MADE FANART FOR ME! I... I CAN'T... OH MY GOSH! I... YOU... AAAAAAAA LET ME JUST REACH THROUGH THIS SCREEN AND GIVE YOU ALL OF THE HUGS!

Seriously... this is touching and... I can't even believe anybody would ever have thought anything of mine was worth drawing fanart for... I legitimately cried when I saw this. I really hope you get better. You don't deserve whatever malady has afflicted you. *HUGS AND MORE HUGS* ;u;

Just because of this, I am seriously considering reviving Limbo. I really want to now.

[lilac]

I really hope everything works out. Just focus on staying healthy and get plenty of rest. *hug*

[Ashley]

I made this yesterday for you fellas. It's actually the first time I've tried coloring my drawing this way, and I think it turned out better than I expected.

And don't sell yourself short, Sushiboy! You've got loads of potential I think. You are much better artist than I was when I was about your same age. The only thing I could draw then were terrible chibi drawings.

btw, I've been scheduled for an MRi scan saturday next week. I hope I can stay alive till then. I'm shaking like mad, and this thing is trying to mess with my body as best at it, but I'm trying to fight it and stay alive!

I'm also going to try something crazy and get a book called the Healing Code. They say it can heal 95% of illness in your body, even cancer... I realize it's a long shot, and it may not even work at all, but it's the best bet I've got at the moment. :/

Well, wish me luck, and I hope this isn't the last time we meet. ;D

[lilac]

I hope it isn't either. And your picture is really cute. :3 Hang in there!

[the1truesushiboy]

Get better, please!

[Ashley]

Am a bit weakened today, but I'm still hanging in there. You guys are all so awesome... thank you from the bottom of my heart.

I've only made foolish choices in my life, but at least I could make some people smile with this time.

Welp, I need a little rest, so I can save my strenght.

Peace!

[lilac]

Meh we all make foolish choices. You won't believe how often I beat myself up over little things and mistakes I've made. It's part of growing up. And yes, you need to rest. *hug* Any word on what's ailing you?

[nightreflection]

It is a terrible thing to discover and it sounds like it didn't give you much time.
I wish I could say something meaningful here. But I suffer from foot-in-mouth disease and generally make things worse.
So I will play it safe with an "I hope you get better" and "you are in my thoughts." I mean that, even though it sounds a bit shallow.
Foolish choices - hindsight is a wonderful thing. I've never met a person without regrets. Odds are, if you picked the other path you'd regret not taking the one you did. Again, it seems flippant, but I've put a lot of thought into it - we know most of our problems, but we don't notice the benefits of our choices until we've thrown them away.

[Ashley]

Hi again! I'm still here! Sorry for my absence. Been allot crazy things happening, and I even had episodes where I didn't think I was going to make it, but I think I've figured it out at last:

: www.webmd.com/fibromyalgia/understanding-fibromyalgia-symptoms

I've experianced allot of the same symptons that is listed there for fibromyalgia. And the more I think the more I think it may be spot on what I've got, and it changes allot:

It's not a fatal disease, but it is a bit cripling. I notice am not as tough as I used to be, and there are even days when I experiance chronic fatigue that leaves me servearly gasping for air. Not exactly a pleasent thing to experaince, but at least I'll live. It could be ME too, since it can also cause severe fatigue. Still, I need to get that MRi scan to be 100% sure.

Lilac: You're right. We've all done things that we regret in the past. But I'm done regretting, and I'm going to move on with my life. I don't look at this as the end for me. I look at it as a new beginning instead. I'm going to make it one way or the other! You can bet on it!


Again thank you all for you wonderful support. I never dreamed that my little post would enable me to meet so many wonderful people out there. I hope I can make a 100% recovery, or at least recover enough to continue my work and spread more happiness to as many people as I can.

Love you all! *hugs*

[Amelius]

Oh gosh, I've never thought I'd have to utter the words "I hope it's that!" in reference to a disease, but considering the alternative could be worse, I do! At least then you can get started on some treatment for it then! Nick's father has fibromyalgia also, so I know how miserable that can make a person feel. :C But at least there's treatments for it so you can have some good days!

My many sympathies for the migraines, I never used to get them until my concussion in high school, and they are an utter misery.

I hope the MRI comes out clear though, it's always best to follow up and be extra sure. I had a bit of a scare a few years back and I know how terrifying it is until you get the results and the all-clear.
I'm glad we could meet you too! My offer still stands, if there's anything we can do to help just let us know!

And here's hoping you do make a full recovery, I'm really looking forward to seeing your work!

We love you too! *big hugs*

[lilac]

I'm with Amelius. I really hope it's that and nothing fatal. I'm still praying for you and I hope you get to feeling better. We all love you and don't want to lose you after just getting to know you. *hugs* We're here if you need anything at all. I know how much chronic pain can suck (I have awful pain in my back, shoulders, and wrists, and have even gotten MRI scans for it) and I'm sorry that you have to deal with all of that. ): Just keep resting and keep us posted. *huggle*

[nightreflection]

Not to be the merchant of doom, but be careful with internet diagnosis. I've used them before and it's a good idea to get a second opinion from several sites. Rembember, you're not a doctor, and often, the web sites aren't monitored by them.
Make sure you start with the symptoms, not the disease you think you have.

Although, to be honest, it is often something a lot less dreadful that what we're er... dreading.

Also, common sense can save a lot of hassle. If you see a pattern, avoid it.

[Ashley]

No no no. You've already done so much for me! Really. I have everything I need, and my papa is helping me out too.

Aw and I'm sorry about Nicks' dad. *hugs* And I'm sorry about your migraines Amelius. They are indeed a nightmare to get saddled with. >_<

And I'm sorry about your chronic pains, Lilac. *hug*

Nightreflection: Yeah, I know I should be careful, but I've been jumping up and down like a loon flying in the dark this whole time, and I've been to so many doctors before, so I don't really know what to think anymore. :/ But the fibromyalgia may be closest to what I have at the moment. Oh well, I'll get to the bottom of this sooner or later.

I think both my migraines and my condition are a cause of high stress that's built itself over the years of taking care of an ill toxic parent. >.< I finally had to call it quits and stop helping her, since it took allot strain on my sanity. Though thankfully she has some other people who can help her now. I still feel sorry for her though, cause I realize it's not really her fault for the way she is, and I hope she can find peace in her soul one day...

lol, and I started reading that book today the Healing Code. I was strongly spectical of it at first, but the more read it, the more things fall into place about ones health. That the medical industry has been doing it at all wrong and focusing mainly the surface of the problem, rather than the root of it. That stress is a huge cause for all the illness one can get saddled with, which in turn switches off our immune system which leaves our bodies defensless to any illness that can comes our way. And that energy in our bodies is the key to healing our hearts, so that the immune system can get reactivated and heal whatever ails the body. It sounds too good to be true really...

I don't really know if it can help me with my condition, but it's an interesting read nonetheless, and it gives me the extra energy to press on whatever I may be up against.

btw, I got a special suprise I'm working on, since you've all been so super nice to me, but it may take a little time.

[nightreflection]

I wouldn't say stress is the root of most sickness, but I do believe that it blows what would otherwise be a minor problem into a big one.
Kind of like a generic anti-cure-all

I believe poor diet and lack of excercise have the same effect.

Add frying our brains with radio-waves, etc. and it's a wonder we can still walk!

It sounds a lot like holistic medicine which teaches that if you give the body the right nutrients it will heal itsself of any disease (If I got it right).
I don't think that is true, surgery and modern medications have their place, but I do believe that if we took better care of ourselves we wouldn't have half the problems we do.

Take what the book says with a pinch of salt. Sit and think on it. It's easy to get carried away on a new idea - been there, done that, still keep doing it
Be wary of books that tell you sickness is purely in the mind. Hypnosis can ease the pain. In extreme cases, though not commonly, people can exhibit symptoms because they believe they have the disease. As I said, in extreme cases, as bad as things look, this is unlikely to be you.

If you are sure it is fibromyalgia, have yourself tested. If the doctor disagrees, make sure you get reasons so you know what to look out for and can make your own judgement on his findings.

As for looking after others, you need to be a little selfish sometimes to put things into perspective, even if only for a moment.
I work with a lady who has ruined the last two years of her life looking after her father. Taking care of him is a good thing, but he is not thankful, not even co-operative, and to boot, she's not an only child, but the rest of the family have left her to do it all alone. It's not fair on her either.
Stop feeling so guilty and try and see things from a third person's viewpoint. You aren't the only person in this world who could help them. In my eyes you've probably earned the right to use some of the reasoning others often toss around so lightly as an excuse.
I'm not saying turn into a total jerk, but you need to put yourself before others, because nobody else will do it for you. When your health is sorted out, THEN start worrying about others.

Most of all, find someone you can talk to about it. Discuss it with your friends or even people you work with who are on good terms with you. You don't need to make it the centre piece of every conversation, but the occasional few minutes can add insights and options you hadn't considered and help put things into perspective. That and it's very theraputic (spelt wrong, I know) knowing you're not alone.

[lilac]

I agree with Nightreflection. Sometimes, after you've done all you can to help someone and they don't recover, you need to stop and do what's best for you. I'm not saying to be selfish or anything, but right now you need to focus on your health. You can't take care of someone if you're sick. It's difficult but sometimes it's for the best.

It does sound like stress has paid a major role in your illness, since you've been going through a lot. I know my headaches/body pains increase with the amount of stress I'm under. Stress has taken a toll on my health, so I can account for that being the case in some cases. But like Night said, take everything with a grain of salt. Get a professional opinion (probably multiple ones, since some doctors don't know what the heck they're doing) and see what happens.

I'm glad you're staying strong and fighting through this. Everything works out for the best and you just need to stay focused on yourself right now. Also, I'm really excited to see this thingy you're working on.

*hugs* Remember, we're here if you ever need to talk.

[the1truesushiboy]

I'm not always the best with expressing myself when it involves others' misfortune, but I'd like to say I agree with what these guys have said, too. Just... be careful.

[jetylefr]

I have missed a lot while I've been away...

LIMBO GOT FANART!?!?!?
WOAH! CONGRATULATATATATIONINGILINGILINGGLESAAAH!!!!




and of course, to the maker of such dedication to awesome being, I wish well being.